Monthly Archives: November 2016

Paul

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Submitted by: Mom
Born: 1974
Died: 2016
My Tribute: To my son,
Such a talented, warm hearted man. I love you and miss you so.

Ian

Submitted by: Mom
Born: 1993
Died: 2016
My Tribute: Ian I know you didn't want to leave us. You are gone only 14 days and it feels like forever. My sweet, intelligent, funny boy, I will never forget you. Taken too soon. I hope you are in peace. Love forever my son.

Jonathan Bowman (Jon)

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Submitted by: Linda Bowman (Mom)
Born: 1987
Died: 2016
My Tribute: Jon, I still can't believe you left us 8 months ago, My Heart aches every single day. From the moment my eyes open in the morning until I drift off to sleep at night. I am hurting so much. I miss your smile, your laughter and your sense of humor. I miss talking with you about the ills of the world. I was so proud to have been able to attend your college graduation and receive your bachelors degree.
I hope you know how loved you were, and that despite the pain, we forgive you. I hope your soul has found a place to rest and that you are finally at peace.
I sometimes feel that you are with me. Sometimes I feel comforted and warm, and I imagine you are hugging me."I Love you forever, as long as I'm living .... my baby you'll be! " xoxoxox

Jeremy

Submitted by: Mom
Born: 1984
Died: 2016
My Tribute: To My Sweet Jeremy - words will never be able to fully express just how much I love you and how very much I miss you. Fly high my sweet Angel. I love you!!!

Andrew

Submitted by: Sally
Born: 1988
Died: 2016
My Tribute: I wish everyone could know about the sensitive, generous, kind hearted person you were instead of looking at the way you died. You were my baby, my youngest, and always brought such joy. It's so hard to believe you're gone. The heartache is so intense thinking of how you struggled. More than anything I wanted to make your pain go away. Despite the heaviness of my grief it is some comfort to know you are no longer suffering.

Zach

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Submitted by: Mom
Born: 1999
Died: 2016
My Tribute: My sweet son born 12/12/99 and died 9/9/16, only 16 years old. Taken way to soon from heroin. Mommy misses you my sweet angel

Only Brother

Submitted by: Little Sister
Born: 1973
Died: 2016
My Tribute: To my handsome brother whom I didn't have a real relationship with. We grew up in the same house but you kept me at a distance to keep me from seeing that you were using and addicted. You protected me.
I saw you three years ago. That was the last time I saw you.
I talked to you this July. That was the last time I talked to you.
I still have your voice mail you left me in May. You were in recovery then. You sounded good and I couldn't wait to have a 'real' conversation with you and to build a relationship with you.
You didn't sound so good in July. I was suspicious when you wouldn't return my calls then. I didn't call you again but knew you were 'ok' through conversations with mom and dad. Little did anyone know that you were off your anti-depressants. Then you took a turn for the worse.
The last time anyone saw you alive, no one suspected that you were using drugs and alcohol again. Not even your best friend in recovery. You hid it well.
I had notions of you dying but of a disease related to alcoholism, not of a drug overdose. And not at the age of 43. I never would have thought it would have been from an IV drug. Never.
Now I'm left with a hole and no answers because you're gone.
I see you now in pictures placed in my living room and in front of your ash-filled urn in mom and dad's house. You are holding a big fish and a wear an equally big smile. Mom and dad feel relief but I don't. Just sadness. You asked me for help 6 years ago and I tried but you wouldn't go into recovery.
I'm sorry you felt alone and sad this September and wanted to numb the pain. That act killed you. And killed us.
We will get through this. I still can't believe this is happening.
I never wanted pain for you but it seemed to follow you. You tried to run away from it. You can't run away from something that is inside you.
I love you big bro. Always have. Always will. Until I see you again in heaven. Keep a fishing pole free for me. In the mean time, catch a big one 🙂