Submitted by: Anissa Makris
My Tribute: http://phaneuf.tributes.com/show/Todd-Christopher-Smith
I will have mountains to share. Pat self on back, I got this done.
My son always said, "Just you and me Ma.".
I pray tribute link works.
Submitted by: Shawnekia Beauford
My Tribute: Here we are 11 months since you left. It feels like day 1. It only gets harder. The days only get longer. I still look for answers. Even though I will never find them. You were a good person and so giving. So many family members and friends miss you. You left a mark on the hearts of many. You are missed Travon. Everyday until I leave this world. I will shed tears for my only Son. My only child. A Beautiful Soul: Travon "Tray" Beauford
Submitted by: Danielle Reba
My Tribute: Dad,
I can't completely express my thoughts, my feelings, my hidden tears. "Why did you leave me so soon, didn't you care about me? Did you not think that I cared about you?" I've have asked myself these things over and over again over the course of the past 2 years. I've googled everything from "does dying from an overdose hurt" to "what is Heaven really like" and still, I find no comfort or closure.
I'm doing okay dad, I really am. I'm engaged and getting married in 2 months. I'm a sophomore in college, I live on my own. I've had complete break downs, but I have rebuilt myself. I'm fine dad, I promise.
I never in a million years would have thought I would be the one to lose a parent at 18, I never in a million years thought I'd be the one to feel to hurt from the effects of an overdose. I didn't know you were doing drugs dad, was it my fault? Did I push you to do them? Of course not, right? I want to know you are in a better place, that you can see me, that you can hear me. I don't know if this is true dad, but I have to believe it is.
Our relationship has always been strained, dad. But now I know why. Your addictions had engrossed you, wrapped you within it's arms, sucking the life out of you every chance it got. I understand now, dad. You loved your addiction more than you loved me, and you thought your addiction loved you more, than I did.
I'm working hard to be myself again, but I must say- it is hard. I still have flashbacks of the day I found out. I still have thoughts about the sight of you laying on the couch by yourself, dying. I wish I could have been there, dad. I wish I could tell you that I do love you, that I miss you more than anything, that I have developed a nagging sensation of something missing within me, since you left.
I remember our last hug, how tightly you had held me. We didn't know that would be our last time, or I would have held on forever.
I love you dad.
Submitted by: Meghan (sister)
My Tribute: My baby brother passed from a heroin overdose on Christmas night. He had been sober for 4 and a half months and had just come home from sober living. He had so much potential, so much love and kindness, but his struggle over the last 6 years got the better of him. I never gave up on him and will forever miss him.
Submitted by: Judy Cox
My Tribute: Beautiful caring talented girl who loved everyone
Submitted by: Cyn (Mother)
My Tribute: I was only 22 when I had my only daughter.
She was such a precocious and gorgeous baby. We did everything together and had tons of fun. Even though I had no experience caring for an infant, it came easily to me because she was just so happy..all the time. I was married but although my husband was "in" the home he was never "present ", if that makes sense. Later in life we were also best friends. These last ten years tho' were such a 180• I realize now, particularly in the final 4 years, she was pushing me away so I went into denial until I lived every day scared to death ..and by then it was too late. I loved Joy so much. We knew each other better than anyone else- and selfishly too, I miss her love.. how much she loved her Mama.
Submitted by: Annette Tzalmon
My Tribute: Our son Michael. Born March 10, 1992. He would have been 25 years old on March 10th. There isn't a day that goes by that we don't speak about you and miss you. We will love you always our beautiful boy.
Submitted by: Pamela Krukow
My Tribute: My wonderful son Chris touched so many lives with his loving heart. He never met a person that did not know he was a really special friend. He was not only my son, he was my best friend also. He leaves behind so many broken hearts from his passing. He passed from an accidental overdose. He had been clean for months. It only took 1 night, that he was so sure that he could beat his demons that he left here at home to go visit some friends, Telling me the whole time that he would be back in time the next morning for his nephews 1st Birthday party. Chris passed that morning and the Sherriff's office was at my door to tell me. My whole world stopped that morning. I am forever grateful that I had 30 years with such a loving son.
Submitted by: Mom
My Tribute: Miss you beyond belief......love you
Submitted by: Carla
My Tribute: Our dear son, a lover of wilderness, natural hiking paths, and trains has passed away into heavens kingdom on 3-19-2017. He was known in our large family as Hank, and Hawk amongst friends near and far. One to make a difference in everyone's life by the simplest means; sharing a ride, demonstrating how to catch fish with his hands, making a great campfire, welcoming friends both old AND new, near or far with a smile and warm embrace. He made a dismal situation uplifting by just a point of view. Hank was clean for 8 months. He came home with a goal of working to save money and travel abroad woth his soul mate, Monica. He will be forever missed by 2 brothers and 2 sisters, mother, father, grandparents, aunts, uncles and countless friends an passers-by. Until we see you again, Hank. You are truly missed, and always loved.